Heather Williamson

Earmaginations [silent videos]

The Scientist

I wasn’t able to look at myself for some years. I’d hide, avoid, feel utterly torn with what I was and who I was becoming. Now I see myself as part scientist. I observe, nurture the experiment, my all or nothing. I research, examine, then measure, communicating the results. I tweak this, rid that. I modify and test out. What works? What does not? I discard useless theories and worn-out, failing systems.

At rising, I discover the experiment is a success. I witness the subject applying her senses. I’m here. I’m alive. She inquires, feels, wonders, eye spies, and on this morning, detects squirrel language. As a result, she quickly departs bed to investigate.

At this time, there is no conclusion. The subject and I continue.

VBODOBV | dEvolution: Personnel

Imagine You’re Not In Pain

“Imagine You’re Not In Pain”
Noisy letter 3.1.17 #goldsvid 8.18

† Side note: Change can still scare me, but these days I say the same to you as I say to me, lovingly: “You won’t fuck me up with your problems.”

† What are #noisyletters? Noisy Letters are audio recordings I started in 2009, placing visuals originated in 2015. They allow me to feel whole even when feeling incomplete. Connection Some are hard to listen to, but if we don’t hear ourselves, then who? I must listen to myself. The need for others to listen to me is unnecessary. Noisy Letters protect, revealing how to protect myself by showing me who I was, can be, who I’m becoming, without judgment. They offer a way to get through, and into, being. Once I be, I leave it all behind, including the one talking. You see, the war inside me is much more interesting than the war with you.
For now, the war’s over. I know it’s still there, somewhere, may always be, but I’ve learned it’s my responsibility to protect me, and it is but a choice for others. Who I chose to be in my life now reflects this.

† I do these not for pity but to relieve myself from the bondage of being me or something, that’s why I do anything. I share my Noisy Letters with you because I want you to imagine a life without pain, even if it means suffering along the way. I want to show you how I get close to myself. Maybe you’ll get close to you. I dare you.

ACE [Artist Curated Events]

Noisy Letters 2013-2020

WHAT ARE NOISY LETTERS?
I‘ve been in a constant state of expansion, disrupting and dissolving the construction of myself. This project cultivates selfishness that invites not separates. Desired impact for sharing? Removing the fear from people’s hearts. 

We must address the systems within ourselves for liberation. I’ll show by starting with me first via “Noisy Letters.” The methods are simple. I record and film on my phone. When I push the record button, I discover and find out. When I know more about myself, I learn more about you. When I feel satisfied, I push stop. 

I started in 2009, placing visuals originated in 2015.
They allow me to feel whole when incomplete. Some are hard to listen to, but if we don’t hear ourselves, then who? Noisy Letters reveal without judgment. They offer a way for me to get through. Once I do, I leave it all behind. Including the one talking. The war is over, for now.

I’m not interested in influencing others, but in providing ways you can influence yourself. I do these not for pity but to relieve myself from the bondage of being me or something, that’s why I do anything. I share my Noisy Letters with you because I want you to imagine a life without pain, even if it means suffering along the way. I want to show you how I get close to myself. Maybe you’ll get close to you? I dare you.

One more thing, it’s wise not to share all your secrets. Keep some for yourself so you can listen to them later. And treasure the good times as much as the “bad”. I don’t always record myself of hardships.
I think my future can and does change my past.